Hello and welcome to Hitchhiker's Guide for Humanity. I will be your guide on this cosmic adventure. Yes, it's me, Erica, Healer, Psychic and Channel four, the source. So I'm going to veer a little for today's episode because I was called to do so. Before I go too far, I want to give some content warnings. Loss of a pet, description of blood. Not gory or anything. You don't need to worry about that, but. 

I got a message recently in a meditation that I was experiencing, and it was bleed for them. And I was like, Hmm. I wasn't really sure what to think. Blood represents all different things here in the physical plane. What did bleed for them actually mean? So to get there, so you could go there with me, I'm going to describe the meditation before I get into what I think it means. 

My last meditation was really intense. Somewhere in there, I was given a book. And when I opened it, there was a hole that appeared and it was vast and I could tell it went into another realm or a different galaxy or something, just something unearthly. And like you do. I stuck my hand in the hole and I pulled out. Blood Blood dripped from my hand, and then I wiped it on the page. And I heard a voice say, Will you bleed for them? I was like, Die. I don't want to die yet. I have shit to do. They said, You're not dying. And I'm like, sacrifice. I don't. I mean, there's a lot of biblical, religious and, like, spiritual stuff that has sacrifice in it. You know, that's a true thing. 

See this is to tell you that when the universe gives you a message, they don't always follow a lot of earthly sense unless it's translated by your guides. I often get them myself straight from source, so I have to become Sherlock Holmes and figure out what it means. Not that my guides don't help me. They certainly do. But I think secretly or maybe not so secretly, they know that I love to be a detective to do the research, so they just let me go. I look for signs. I go back to experiences. I research online. But the answer to this one came in the quiet of the night. I have to bleed for them. I used to say when I wrote, I used you know, I write books not used to I still do that. I would bleed on the page. Because I had this way to write emotion that could make people cry. I have a whole novel out there that does just that. And I thought. What would bleed on the page mean for me? A new podcaster. And then it hit me. I'm not supposed to only be describing these high level concepts. I'm also supposed to bleed on the page. I'm a writer, after all. But bleeding on the page means vulnerability. This isn't teen fiction. This is real. I would have to tell strangers my stories of pain and struggle because that's what the universe wants. I have to tell you how I got to the light from a very dark place, because I am in the light now. It's very bright. Even with everything going on. But it wasn't always like that. But I also don't want to be another person talking about their hard childhood or what happened that made them excel. It just doesn't seem authentic to who I am. Even now. 

So. Dearest humans, I will bleed for you. I do not know why. The universe wants me to have this podcast, but they do. I have seen two other spiritual practitioners who both said the word podcast. My guides went to a friend and had her ask me to start one with her. Then circumstances arose that made it so. I did this alone, which is the way I believe they always wanted it anyway. I do not know. Why I was chosen to speak to you, what bleed for them means. And I don't want to get it wrong. You see, with spirituality, there are no wrong answers. Not really. My guides told a psychic that I saw that there are no rules. That I am meant to change the collective perspective in some way. It's one of my soul purposes here. But I know as much as anyone that most people care about stories that make them feel something, make them relate in some way. And I've always been pretty decent at that. But this is a whole different medium for me. I don't want to fail. Not on this stage, this large, not with the universe. And my guides peering over my shoulder, waiting for me to say the right thing. I know that's not the case. Pressure is an ego thing. It's not a soul thing.  

So I had a whole episode about the Akashic Records done. I was editing and I thought. This is just information. It doesn't let anyone feel anything. All it would do is feed their curiosity. But how could I make this podcast to actually help humans? That is what my intention is. How do I tell you, dear humans? How it feels to live without the fear of death. Rejection most of the time. How it feels not to care what anyone thinks and to live authentically as me. To know what I know. Because the truth is, you can do this too. It's painful. You almost always have to go through a so-called dark night of the soul. And that's one of the hardest experiences of my life, at least. And I'm going to get real with you. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder during mine. My dark night of the soul came with that. I was confused, scared. And all that I read about this particular disorder wasn't good. It was horrific. How could I have this? I was in denial. But then I took off that distorted lens and I saw clearly for the first time, thanks to my therapist as well, we don't want to shout out. She's she's amazing. And I haven't seen her over 11 years. But once that happened, then the real work began. The cycling through the various death and rebirth cycles of my life, from childhood to adulthood, every relationship, every experience had been tainted by this BPD lens, and I had no clue. A spiritual awakening doesn't come from a moment of Aha! Here I am. I am spiritual now. Yay! It's a trade off. You must go through death to get to rebirth, just like the Earth and humanity is going through right now. Death of something familiar can be painful and excruciating. You will hold on to what you know with an iron grip. And humans do not like change. But that's precisely why we're here in Earth school. To learn and change and grow. When you sit stagnant in the humdrum of life, you don't get the full human experience and the universe, your guides and higher self will literally kick your ass out of whatever it is. Usually when you've gotten too comfortable, that job you lost, it was for a reason. It's not where you're supposed to be doing with your life. The love you let get away. They were supposed to leave. Some come back. Some don't. Thus is life. Beloved pet you had to say goodbye to. This is a tough one and one that I myself went through this month. There is no pain like that of losing a furry family member on this planet. But it was his time. His contract was up. He knew it and was ready. I wasn't. So I can talk about the Akashic Records and other downloads I get, and I will. But there's not a lot of blood in those data points. Not as much as in my heart and soul. So, dear humans, I will endeavor to bleed for you from now on. I only ask in return that you see it for what it is a message from the universe that you are amazing, vibrant soul who deserves all the wonderful experiences and moments Earth has to offer. The beauty here is the mystery, the finding of your soul mate. If you believe that again, after just missing each other in the last life. The riding a rollercoaster for the first time, even if you've already done it in another incarnation, hearing a beautiful piece of music you could have actually written and never knew it. What if you were Beethoven in a past life? It's totally possible. Maybe it's creating a real life human. 

So. Enjoy your human experience here. Take the risks, the leaps. Give your soul a chance to take flight. Peace and love to you all. Until next time.